Sunday, January 29, 2006

I can fly , I can fly . I can fly

I just love those flying dreams like the one I had last night. Where I am walking along and I step down on one foot and launch myself into the air. I tend to fly like Mary Poppins which I think is out right cool. But this time I came in from out side with Chastity Bono leaving her outside it was windy. I stepped inside and stepped and I was flying ,through a furniture store filled mostly with sofas SINGING I can fly I can fly I can fly............When I stopped I came down on a sofa and rolled softly over into a glass top coffee table. There was a sales lady there asking me about my flying and how long I had been doing it and how I did it. But there was a storm brewing outside a large massive black cloud hanging low in the sky turning round and round the wind was blowing hard and I told her to get ready for the storm coming you need to find a place to be when it hits that's not out in the open I pointed to a small area with a yellow wall and told her to be there. I went on about storms and tornados and how you can tell one is coming by the walling and turning of the clouds. Like those. I finished what I was doing and left walking out into the storm and the wind to my car which was parked around 3 tricked out canary Yellow and Red Caddies with gold grills, rims , and accents.
Then ( still dreaming) my home phone rang and some one asked if such and so could come and fax something from my house I said sure. Then there was something about not having a fax they could use but I would love to see them anyway and when they pulled up outside I looked and it was Sara ( that crazy roommate) I was not letting her into my house.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006


Well my tush is still soar. I do not plop down I sit down very easy. It does not hurt today as much as it in days past but if I sit wrong I feel it. I will finish the steroids in the morning and I am taking a lortab at night to sleep which is bringing on some out right freaky deaky dreams. I have yet to remember last nights dreams. I went to bed Monday night feeling very eurorphic and in a blissful happiness, and no it was not the drugs. But the dreams that night just were all out crazy and involve running for my life with blood , gore and sheer fear fueling the night but in this last one I was running with a Man and though we feared for our lives I felt safe because we were together, but who would not feel safe running with Viggo Mortenson. And No I have not seen any of his movies after LOTR. Of course my broken butt is reason to not excirsie wouldn't want to take any chances now would we?

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Jack and Jill went up the Hill....

and Fern came tumbling after. Well on Friday the 13 th it was snowing and I of course was out delivering pizza which is what I do on Friday nights now. The snow was pretty and was melting as soon as it hit the ground it had rained all day away so everything was wet. I went to a house to deliver a pizza and made it up the wooden ramp with no problem to the door. Upon leaving I somehow ended up on the ground I was sitting there before I had knew I had fallen. It hurt like the dickens. I went right back to the store and reported it to the manager. Well the next day I was still soare and I having no health insurance did not rush to the Doctor. Yes I know about workmans comp I also know what a pain in the ass it is and I already had one pain in my ass I did not need another. So I put off doing anything for to long if you want to know the truth. I went this Saturday Yes over a week later to the Doctor at a walk-in clinic. Guess what I have broken my cockais ( tail bone, ass) what ever you want to call it. Well I now have some steriods and lortab , which made for some wacky dreams last night the lortab not the steroids. So my tushy hurts unless I take a lortab which I have not all day so I can work, but I am off now to lortab land. Somehow this gives a whole new meaning to pain in the ass.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Date from Hell

I have not had a date in well over a year so when I went out with a friend of mine to this Mexican restaurant she always goes to and one of the guys asked about me and want to get to know me I said why not. My girlfriend knows most of the people there.
We met at Friday's and well he would not keep his hands off of me I would ask him to slow down and back off a bit and he would not My friend was with me and she asked him in Spanish no less. He told me he wanted me to be his girlfriend we have know each other 5 mins. Then he asked if he could kiss me and I told him NO! So then get this he told me he loved me! Give me a freakin break. We went to another place where He kept trying get in my pants and when he could not he got mad and said he was tried and wanted to go home so we said OK bye and left. THEN That idiot called me this morning to ask what I was doing? Give me a break. I got no RESPECT! That loser did not even by our drinks. NEXT! Now I remember why I have not dated in like 2 years.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Star light Star bright

Did you know…
Astronomers believe there to be more stars in the universe than there are grains of sand in all the world's beaches and deserts. They estimate there are about 70 sextillion stars. That's a 7 followed by 22 zeros. <>

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Buffy in Bed

I am not sure if I am just not young any more or what but Monday I just could not for the life of me get going. I worked at the pizza place till almost 11PM ,Sun, got home and hit the hay so at 5AM when my alarm started going off I had to hit snooze twice. I did get up start the water for my tea and jump in the shower. When I got out I put the bag in the water and went to put on my make-up. I looked in the mirror and decided it was just not worth it today. I got my tea and made me some cereal and went to check my e-mail like I do every morning. Yesterday was my friend Stephs Birthday and I WAS going to drop her a note but I ran out of time and had to get going if I was going to be at work at 7, I just like being up early go in early go home early is my theory, I can send Steph her note once I am at work. I went back to my room to get dressed and there it was the bed. I could lay down till 7 and be at work at 7:30 I can lay in bed and watch Buffy. I set the alarm on my phone for 7AM it was 6:20. I hit snooze and reset that thing until it rang at 9:30 so much for a little nap by then I just had no strength at all . It was as if all my energy had been sucked out of me. It could also be that I had nightmares and spent most of the night running for my life. So needless to say I did not go in I stayed at home and just let the couch suck my life out of me napped on and off all day. AT 4PM it's almost time to be at the pizza place and I wasn't feeling it. I got up and went in anyway I felt better once I had been moving an hour. But man I was out of it. Maybe it was the dream that did it?

Saturday, January 07, 2006

And the beat goes on

So Libby has gotten moved to Missouri in a town about 30 to 45 min from Farmington which is the closest town with sit down restaurants. She has not been there a week yet and was moving and starting her new job this past week so I am not sure how things are going for her I wish her luck. It is always hard to move to a new place especially when you don't know anybody but Libby has this way of making friends easily and has always been very sociable. A trait that I do not carry but frankly have learned not to care over the years. I love the friends I have , I love hanging out with them. But I am also I big fan of my alone time. My Mother who went with Libby to help her get settled has said that she is in a very small apartment provided by the Y. And has a lot of limited space in her place but Libby always seems to make due I am sure she will this time.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Brokeback Mountain

I had two of my Gays and a friend of theirs come in from Chattanooga to see Brokeback Mountain. I am telling you it is the most beautiful love story I think I have ever seen. It is an OUTSTANDING movie and I for one highly recommended it. It still has me in tears at the beauty of it all. Please go see it.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy New Year

So here we are at brand spanking new year. I hope this year is better than the last. I was planning on being ready to run in the local marathon in April but I have yet again waited to long to do this. This will be the third year in a row I have blown this one. But I did buy the shoes. That counts as effort doesn't it.
I am happy and that is all that matters. Happier than I have been in a very very long time. So yea for me. I could not ask for much more out of life than I have. I do have a lot of questions about myself I need to ask and a lot of self doubt to rid myself of but that should not be much of a problem. I am always asking questions about myself it is the way I grow and become this better person I strive to be.
My hope for each of you is that you can find and hold peace in the This New Year , that you can grow in mind , body , and spirit. And enjoy the journey that is life.