Thursday, January 31, 2008

Bucket List

So this new movie "The Bucket List" and the article in today’s paper have me thinking about my own personal Bucket List and all the things I want to do before I kick the bucket. In no particular order they are:

1. Get married 2.Have a babies 3. Sky dive 4. Make amends with an old college friend
5. Run a marathon 6. Get a passport and use it to travel the world. 7. Take a gourmet cooking class 8. Raft the Colorado 9. Visit the Opera House in Sydney 10. Visit the Louvre 11. See a baseball game in every major league park. 12. Attended a World Series Game (w/ the Braves in it would be a plus) 13. Snow ski 14. Own a fast car. 15. Hike the Appalachian Trail. 16. See a fall in Maine 17. Attended a Super Bowl
18. Take a writing course 19. Get my college degree 20. Take a wine tasting class.
21. Get the nerve up to go topples on a topless beach. 22. Learn to play poker.
23. Find the funny. 24. Use the Ball Gown that is in my closet just in case. 25. see an active volcano 26. Fire walk. 27. Scuba dive 28. Go to Six Flags. 29. Own a cabin in the mountains 30.Learn to sew. 31. Hike into the base of the Grand Canyon 32. Learn to Surf 33. Go to the fish market in Seattle and watch them throw fish 34. Get a dog (German Sheppard or Flat Coated Retriever) 35. Keep adding to my list.

I am sure if you all did your own list I will go oh yea cool I want to do that too.

Things I have already done:

1. Ridden a bull 2. Been to Hawaii 3. Made friends I will never forget.4.Seen the Grand Canyon 5. been in love 6. Own a home 7. Been to Washington D.C. 8. Been on a Cruise 9. Gone Deep Sea Fishing 10. Lived in the Mountains 11. Danced in the Rain 12. Laughed till I cried. 13. Rafted the Ocoee 14. Camped out under the open sky
15. Learned to Ice Skate. 16 .Had a job that I felt was my purpose 17. Seen the JGB.
18. Joined a book club. 19. remember what I have already done.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

It's nothing personal but.....

You know people suck. I have been chatting on line with this guy Dennis for 7 years. I met him while I was still dating Kelly and we have been chatting back and forth on and off all this time. Dennis was coming into town on business Tuesday and Wednesday I had agreed to get together with him while he was here for dinner. All I asked was that he give me a call and let me know when he thought he might be able to meet me so I could make my plans. He never called not even a quick shot email to say hey Goddess things are crazier here than I thought can't meet you. But no it's nothing personal but I have no manners.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

To Anonymous

Confidentially to Anonymous- Drop me an email and let me know what your up too.

Friday, January 25, 2008

When it's 10

Degrees that is. That is what it was when my alarm went off at 5 AM this morning. 10 degrees. Can you say wholly Sheep Shit Batman. I can't seem to find that motivation I need to get out of bed and run. OK I can't find the motivation to get out of bed at all. There should be laws against making you leave the house on days like today. Makes me think it was a wise decision not to move to Alaska like I was thinking of about 9 years ago.
I would not have done well there. But, at the time the idea of ten men to each woman was rather appealing. I went so far is to have a few news papers sent to me and was looking for a job and a place to live. The Sunday Paper in Juno is tiny. I can't remember why I gave that up. I know I talked to my buddy Ricky about it over and over and all he would say is "Ya I know." I guess it is a little late to slam him on that. Ricky come over here and let me fuss at you hit you with a hair piece.

I have only been doing that to one person this guy I have been seeing I'll call him Kentucky Blue , K.B. for short. We are not serious , just dating taking it really slow and getting to know each other. There is no pressure one way or the other. He is sweet , funny, kind, very handsome, with a great smile and softness behind his eyes. He has not seemed satisfied with me just saying OK. He wants to know what I think so now I am going to start to tell him. Should someone warn him? I don't come with one of those warning labels WARNING CONTENTS ARE OPINIONATED AND VOLATILE. OK KB you wanna know what I think sit back here I come.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

What's so funny?

My friend Betty thinks I am funny. Well hells bells I think I am funny but not on my own. Betty thinks I should work on a stand-up routine but Betty is 80 I keep hoping she'll forget. But, she doesn't.

Betty wants me to do an open mike nite somewhere. HELLOOO. I need a straight man to do my routine off of. I am the friend that will put your foot in your mouth after you say something.

It is obviously something I have been thinking about. Betty got going with this early last summer. I don't think digging down and finding the courage to get on stage is my problem I think digging down and finding something I can do on my own is. Finding the funny is. I don't know that I can be funny by myself all alone on stage with people looking at me. How do I find what is so funny just me with no one to feed off? It is not like I can go to Stand Up School. OK I am sure I could but it is not like going to typing school so you can get a job typing.
I can't even write funny. Alright I do write funny but that has more to with bad English than with humor. Which as I recall was a pretty good group.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

This is only a test

The last two days have been nothing if not trying. It has been an emotional roller coaster. My father has been sick for some time. He has something called ITP and it all has to do with low platelet counts. He has been on steroids and then chemo to get this under control. Plus he has been weak and having dizzy spells for the last few weeks. He is also getting older and will be 75 this Sunday.
On Wednesday he was at work he got off the van and passed out. Falling forward onto his knees and then smacking his head on a car. After a minute he regained conciseness and they moved him into the break room and told him he was done for the day. He called my Mother to tell her and to let her know that he was going to have someone from work drive him home. She told him that he was going to have someone bring him to the Hospital. When he arrived his heart rate was in the
30s now he has always run low but not this low. Test were done and he was put in a room. He had many an EKG and the words Pace Maker were being tossed around.
Today he was given some kind of electro cath test first thing they wanted to be sure with this test. He went from this test right into surgery for placement of a pace maker.
I have been a little emotional. When my Mom called me at work Wednesday and told me what was happening she said he was fine and to wait to hear from her. I sat at my desk for an hour unable to focus and waiting for my boss to come in. I cried out of fear . Called and TXT some friends. And went to the hospital.
Daddy will be home tomorrow. My friends have been fabulous from calling to stopping by the hospital to check on me and my family. You guys are the best I love you all. I have felt all your love thank you for helping me through another test.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Failur is not an option

I am thinking I can't get this whole marathon thing done. It involves way to much. I know why most people fail at their New Years Resolutions. Sleeping is so much easier. But getting ready to run this marathon involves so much. I have to admit to those who do not already know that I have started smoking again. I am not buying my own cigarettes but I ma bumming them from my friends who smoke and it is not just me smoking when when I drink which is not often. I am smoking whenever I hang out with the smokers. Except that one that smokes menthols and he is saying he is quiting. So not only do I need to quit for health and the marathon but I am going to quit to help encrouage him.
It is all in line with this live healthy thing in 2008. Get all the toxicity out of my life. Though I am not ready to give up my occasional drink nor my medium rare steak. But smoking, a few people , the drive thru. These are things I am going to clean out of my life oh and lets not for get shoulder pads.
I am not going to fail at this I am just having doubts. What are your doubts?

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Welcome 2008

We have put another year behind us. 2007 was not a bad year , my family and friends are healthy and safe. I live in the greatest country in the world. I have great friends whom I love very much. I have put unnecessary people out of my life and brought in some new people in.
One such new person has called me out on a challenge that I have made myself for years and always fizzle out on. He has put it to me to get it done even posted his challenge in a video on his Myspace page. I have been saying for years I was going to run the Music City Marathon. Well here it is for the world to see IN APRIL I WILL BE IN THE MUSIC CITY MARATHON. I don't know if I am going to do the half or the whole yet. But I will myself be in it. I invite you all to Nashville to run with me or you can meet me at the finish line. I also invite you all to check-up on me ask me where I am in my training.
What challenges have you made for yourself this year?