Friday, May 30, 2008


How hard was this? I knew what I wanted to do but when it came to picking my pictures and songs I was on over load. So there are many and many not listed and pictures not posted.

"In my life" I have had many people.

Who will say " I'll be there for you" They stand up and protect you.

When times are lean and you are down and troubled.

You can always " Lean on me"

Because "You've got a friend"
Who will never let you forget

Those silly things you have done
Because after all " That's what freinds are for"

So "Stand by me."

and laugh with me but in the end all I want to say is "Thank you for being a freind".

Did you play?

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

When the bow breaks

I am going to Chattanooga Sunday for a baby shower. I am going alone. The beautiful Momma to be already has three nephews. All under 3. Babies , babies , babies. Just thinking about going leaves me crying. I have managed to put a lid on the desires. Ok that is a lie. I just don't talk about it. And if I don't talk about it I don't have to think about it. I get to pretend like it does not bother me that it is not me having that baby. Can I keep up the act during the party? Can I go and not lock myself in the bathroom to cry?
Sometimes I feel as if I have no one to talk to about it. Women like Marcia Cross make me grateful though. Like I am in on some wonderful sisterhood of single , smart , funny , intelligent women over 37 who are single. Thanks Marcia. But somehow I don't think Marcia will answer my call.

Friday, May 23, 2008

SPF ~ Me in Music

May 23rd is (SELF or SOMEONE) YOU IN MUSIC (playing an instrument, dancing, getting ready for a dance getting into music..whatever)

I had a hard time with this one. My excuses are as follows:

1. I am not at all musical
2. This has been a week from hell at work
3. I just couldn't wrap my pea brain around it.

Then I saw Kristine's and the the little light bulb went off in my head and at 6 am I was going trough my boxes of pictures. So here late is my SPF

This is me and Jason Seal what a doll. All I can tell you is we were dancing and we had had a few.

Sr. Prom 1989 I went with Tim Curry. The regular guy not the actor. I was so in love with that dress.

This me ready for Home Coming at The University of Tennessee at Chattanooga 1991. Get Down .

Friday, May 16, 2008


Here we are at Friday again and Kristine at Random and Odd has asked us to use a line from a song. I went through a lot of songs and as I was planing my Mother's gift for mother's day only one thing stuck in my head and that is what I had to go with now it's stuck in your head. MAWHAHAHA

Song: Coconut


Sunday, May 11, 2008

In getting in the swing

It is freaking cold here in Nashville. Right mow it is 57 degrees and cloudy. Brrr. It is May isn't it? The wind is blowing and Mom is calling it a Blackberry winter. I was with her late today for Mother's Day so a nap in my sweats is out to late for a nap. If I sleep now I wont sleep tonight. I love naps in the middle of the day even if they are little 15 minute naps. When the weather is right I like napping outside. But today it is cold and I have even shut the windows in my room. Though the ones through the rest of the house are open I can just stay hold up in my room till it warms up. Maybe there is that pesky thing called work and those damn people at Wells Fargo want their money. It never ends.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Believe in me

Today is the day. I spent a year working on this project and another year waiting for the answer as it is all reviewed by the state. My boss and I have a meeting with the Executive Board of the Department of Mental Retardation Services this afternoon. I don’t think it would have gotten this far if it was not good and I am hoping this meeting is just a final interview. While waiting I have held off looking for a new job, I have worked a second job, I have not taken a vacation, and lets not get into my bills. Waiting on this thing to take off. Waiting on the State to approve us for being a Service Provider. Today is the day I find out if my Mother was right and I am wasting my time. I have other friends who have expressed the same concern but it annoys me more coming from my mom. So today I need all your good vibes, good thoughts, positive energy. I stuck with this because I believe in it and today I need more than me to believe.


This weeks SPF from over at Random and Odd was Your IPOD.

I am part of Kristine's No pod club. This is the boom box that sits on the extra desk in my office. I turn on the radio every day and listen all day to JACK FM , There is no DJ and songs don't repeat every four hours. But if you all want to get me or Kristine an I-pod or what ever it is.

Did you play?

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

My Internet Balls

OK well I don’t have any. No really I don’t I am a chicken shit, even here in my blog. If you don’t know what Internet Balls are Kristine at Random and Odd who made it in to the Urban Dictionary with that word says it is:

“When you think you can sit behind your computer screen and write whatever you want, to whomever you want. These are not things you would say to the person if you were face to face. That would require having balls when you're away from your computer...which you don't. Internet balls are only obtained while behind the screen and keyboard.”

I lack them. Seriously I do. I say all kinds of things. I have wanted to blog my thoughts about all kinds of things, things that people I know have done. People they date, hell people I date, stupid things they have done. But I keep it off my blog. I haven’t got the balls to do it.

I have drafted several little ditties about people in my life only to delete them. And if you have to ask me if it was you then the answer is yes it was you. That may be why I don’t blog a lot there is not a lot going on. I don’t have kids, a husband or boyfriend, or crazy co-workers to regal you with tales of that cute little thing that my kid did today or my co-worker is so crazy. It is just me and my boss in my office and as Dooce has taught us all don’t go bashing your boss on your blog if you want to keep your job. Not that I mind that stuff. I read blogs of people that talk about their families daily.

I just don’t think people will want to know that stuff about me. I work I sleep I repeat some days I work two jobs. I think about ex- beaus and sometimes go as far as to try and google them see if I can’t track them down give them a call. Do you people really want to hear that stuff? I am sure he does and I think he reads this blog. That can put a stop to what you say in a blog.

Knowing that your friend Sally reads your blog and you think her husband Kyle is a total jack ass and he did this really obnoxious thing, like he always does, and Sally knows he did but she likes to live as if he is some Saint and if you put down that event and your thought about it then the little Fantasy Land that Sally lives in is shattered and she no longer wants to speak to you. But really it is not Sally that you no longer wish to see. So we all sit in a little group and talk about Kyle and the blinders that Sally goes through life wearing. Now if Sally were to ask me all bets would be off. But Sally is not going to ask me. Sally knows better. So I don’t blog about it because if Sally wanted the truth she would have it.

What I over all aim for is something that would be of interest to my friends without crossing that line of alienating the friends I have. With a dose of humor mixed in. Does one of my friends really need to know what I use to remember their birthday each year? I think it is funny but would they? The likely hood is YES they are a friend and my humor is one of my best qualities. But I don't put it here for fear of upsetting them. So sometimes you need internet balls.

So I am going to try and blog more about what is going on in my life and find a happy medium between what I to tell some of my friends but not the rest of them. I also have to make up my mind if I want to name my friends or give them colorful nicknames. This would be the point where my friends chime in and say hey don’t use my name. But then if I give you nicknames then it might be easier to confuse some of you. Then you wouldn’t know for sure if I was talking about you or not. Because for some of you ‘Shamus’ I can point to something shinny and you forget I am talking about you.
Look over there Dolce and Gabbana on sale.

Friday, May 02, 2008


Well Kristine over at Random and Odd has given us a pretty cool assignment for this week SONG . I love music I am just not good at remembering what the songs are called. So in some aspects you all are lucky you did not end up with a picture of a school bus and the song title “ Wheels on a Bus” Ooops I hope no one does that. Any way this is what I could get my head around while working two jobs and such.

Money - Pink Floyd

Did you Play?