1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? I went to Hawaii !

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? My New Years Resolution was to be a better person this year than last I think I have done that.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Not to a baby

4. Did anyone close to you die? Nope.

5. What countries did you visit? Never left the USA

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? A DATE.

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? I can't pin point the every date but I know that 2000 Men and women have given their lives in our Presidents War.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I remained strong through it all.

9. What was your biggest failure this year? Not knowing when to say enough is enough and letting people take advantage of my good nature.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? None.

11. What was the best thing you bought? A ticket to Hawaii.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Mine I stayed strong.


13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Heather,Sara, and Carrie's .

14. Where did most of your money go? Car payment, house payment.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Going to Hawaii.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005? Heck I don't have a clue.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. Happier or sadder? Happier. Thinner or fatter? fatter. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more? Gone out.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? sitting around.

20. How will you be spending Christmas? Here in Nashville with my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2005? No

22. How many one-night stands? None, I don't do that.

23. What was your favorite TV program? TV? I like CSI.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate people but I sure as heck don't really like a few people anymore.

25. What was the best book you read? Did not do a lot of reading this year need to fix that.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery? Scott Miller and the Common Wealth.

27. What did you want and get? To go to Hawaii.

28. What was your favorite film of this year? I only saw like 3 movies and I only remember one and that was One of the Harry Potter movies.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I went paddling down the Caney Fork. I was 35.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Having never let those nutty witches live with me.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? Are shoulder pads still in style?

32. What kept you sane? The Great Spirit.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? OH it is too sad to say. But now I fanacy Vin diesel

34. What political issue stirred you the most? The bloody war and the bribe scandal here in TN.

35. Who did you miss this year? Jonathan

36. Who was the best new person you met? That would be my conversions with God Group their a pretty neat group of people.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: That I still am way to nice sometimes.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "Sunny days keeping the clouds away........."

Giving Thanks

There are so many wonderful things to be thankful and I try every day to remember what I have to be thankful for. I am a blessed person. Though I am a few days late and the whole list will not appear and not in any order here is just a brief list of what, I am thankful for :

A God/spirit that guides me
My family
My Friends
My home
losing a job I was not happy at
I had kept delivering pizza after going to Hawaii
Getting to go to Hawaii
The warm sun
Cool wind
Wet water
Men and women who die for their Country
Bush only has 3 more years
Freedoms
Coffee
Hot Tea
Sushi
Rain
The Red Cross
The ability to care
The ability to learn from what life has offered me
Chocolate
Ice cream on a warm summer day
Mountains
Trees
Streams
Good cooks
Good restaurants
Books
Warm blankets on a cold winter day
Hikes in the woods
Shoes that make my butt and legs look sexy
that I don't have to wear those shoes every day
Laughter
Good wine
My car
Lazy days at home
warm slippers
Cats
Dogs
Forgiveness
Kindness
Love
I am most thankful to be the person that I am. I like me and I respect myself I am thankful for that.

Now that is the Bright side

I tell you what I know for a fact now that things will be OK and that anything is possible at this point. Vanderbilt BEAT the Vols 28 - 24. It was the first win against the Vols in 23 years and took away the Vols chance for a Bowl Bid. I have always been a Vandy fan and I tend to cheer for the underdog so GO DOORS !!!!!
Everything else is fine no job yet but I am waiting for copies of my college Transcripts so I can use that info and I am doing well with money at Delivering Pizza. Hey the future is bright.

Half in the Saddle

Well I am up and heading off this morning to this part time job ,24 hours, a friend has for me. One of the Nurses from my previous job has a staffing agency and needs someone to do some administrative stuff around his office and some basic editing of his proposal to start his own facility for adults with developmental disabilities.
He has taken parts from other agency's Policy and procedures Manual and put them into his I get to go through and place in his agency name and the titles he will have for his employees. Later I will get into personal files and such. There is no one in the office but me and he said I could even work from home if I wanted to but I think the distraction here would be to great. But it is something to get me by. He did say that when things get off the ground and if I do well there could be a full time position for me however I am still looking for full time work with benefits.
Libby called last night and has taken a job at a camp in Missouri as a Program Coordinator and just in the nick of time as the YMCA has come to the decision to close the camp she is at now effective immediately. The area she is in is just beautiful but the Y in Knoxville is not willing to put the money it takes to a run the into and they would rather focus on the centers and programs in town. She starts her new job after Christmas and the Y is going to let her stay on the property till then. Well at least one of us has a job.

I give up

I have sat here for over an hour trying to cut and paste links onto my blog following the steps it has listed and still I am doing something wrong and the new links wont show up. Any bright ideas?

Things will be just fine

I swear just when I think I have it all together BLAM I get knocked down again. I lost my job last week. I knew it was coming and I had so much else going on that I let things get behind and they caught up with me. I was not at all surprised and to tell the truth I was rather relieved that the whole thing was over. The day before I was let go my supervisor let me know how I should have been fired 4 years ago and why people let me think I was OK in what I was doing she had no idea that any other company would fire me with in weeks if I tried to do the same job. This after she looked me in the face and told me she had never ever told me I was not a capable person. I could write a nasty letter about her but one she is not worth it and two she is among this group of high up friends from an agency that went belly up that work for us and they are pushing out the noises makers to bring in their own and it has been extremely hard to work there for sometime. Now I just need to find a new job quickly. I have a friend with a staffing company and can pick up more hours with the Pizza Delivery , glad I kept that job after Hawaii. I am going tomorrow with another friend down to a State office to talk to people in the MRDD field and see what we need to do and the codes we should put in to get our applications processed faster. I am asking for prayers.
I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends your support and belief in me has meant the world and each and every one of you has help keep me going during the last few months you are the gold at the end of my rainbow. THANK YOU for all you do.

The new thought

My baby sister has been the greatest help to me when I was feeling extremely self destructive. I called her the other night when I was on the verge of calling an ex who is part of my most self destructive past and in no way is good news. She pointed it out. Called it what it was. I was looking for trouble, that is what I wanted to call it, which is not always a bad thing. Is it? I seem to find it by being kind to people who are bad news. I have never found trouble in the since that I have been to jail though there was that time in college we did avoid the police by hiding in the cemetery. I suppose we all have a self destructive side I just guess I am looking at mine in a new way. Calling it something new. It is all part of growing ,changing, becoming. What will I become when I grow up?

Which way is .........

Which way is it that I look to add friends blogs here? Feeling better today but getting to leave work before I pass out because I am so tired might be the reason.
I am still feeling a bit down and wishing my house would clean itself. I am in big time need of a carpet shampooer so I clean my carpets and then maybe feel a little bit better about the whole mess. Slowly it is coming together. I am going to be looking for a new job and will be sending my resume out to the State of Tennessee to see if I can get some hits on it. Cross your fingers and some of you should be expecting phone calls Hey wait if they are going to call you will need your new address and number which was saved on my computer. kiss kiss.
I am going to plan a trip to the mountains soon I could use it.

Finding my way home

It has been quite apperant here lately that I have lost my way. I have really felt lost , scared , and pretty depressed. Though when someone set this blog up for me it did make me cry. I have not had the best of luck here lately and most of it can be contributed to my all around good nature. I have had a lot of people tell me to stop being so nice and to toughen up. Though I would think a number of people who know me would say that my big heart is my best quality. And I suppose that is what always gets me into a heap of trouble is I am often to kind. I am tougher than I used to be and I think I have come far but I can never see myself turning my back on humanity. So when I am taken advanatage of because of my kindness it leaves me reeling and shatters me and my faith in mankind. But I still don't want to give up hope in goodness , hope in people and hope in general. My kindness and hope is my home and I need to regain that.