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Table for One

I have taken to really appreciating myself and enjoying my time loving me. So again this year I made a Dinner Reservation at Mambu here in Nashville and took myself out to eat. I came home early from work , took a nap , then did a mud mask before taking a long soak in the tub ( OK not that long I am so impatient) while listening to some cool Jazz tunes. I painted my toe nails fixed my face and my hair and drove myself out for my Valentines Dinner. With me.

It is such a liberating experience and I enjoy it!!! I am in hog heaven.

I don't think I have ever realized the freedom of letting go of old feelings than I do with Valentines Day. I used to use this day to dress in Black and I would spend all day in what I called mourning. Because I was mourning the lack of a love life. But all that time I missed something , ME. Not anymore.

But I have a life and I have love. I love , I am love. My goal , my intention is to love myself every day like I have today. And always enjoy my Table for One.

HELP

If anyone out there in blogger land would like to explain to me like I'm a 5 year old how to add in links to the new blogger. I will be greatful. I couldn't do it in the old one either. But I got the whole picture thing down.

Track 29

Pretend there is a picture of a train here. I didn't want to steal one.


So if my plans go as I hope I will be in Chattanooga Wednesday Night for dinner with the my Gal Pals. Go me!!

Peace

There is something so peaceful about snow fall. Especially when I can sit home on my sofa and drink my tea and watch it out my window. This view is from my front porch as I went out to get my paper. It is going to be a great day to meditate and call Jonathon and wish him a Happy Birthday.

SPF

My button. One day as I work though this I will figure out how to put in links and such your lucky I got the picture here. But I did learn the other day watching some game show that the belly button is your very first scar.

Life's a Puzzle

Some days I totally get life and other days it is a puzzle. There are days I have blanks that I can't quite fill in and I spend my day looking for what fits in each place. I can sometimes go back though out the day and take another look and get what I was missing. And then sometimes I have to wait till tomorrow for the answers to come.

Here lately I have been having the strangest dreams I am not sure what they are telling me but they are some nights vivid well lite but last night I was in a crowded and dark house. Just one more blank to fill in I guess.

The New Year

I am not going to do anything fancy. Just wish everyone a prosperous New Year. And leave a list of things I want to do different in 2007.

1. I want to manager my money better.
2. I want to read more and watch less TV( yes I had this one last year).
3. I want to get more exercise. This requires watching less TV.
4. I want to get down to working only ONE job.
5. I want to keep in better touch with my friends.
6. I want to keep my house clean.

I did it !!!

I have upgraded to the new blogger. Go me!!! I also got a digital camera for Christmas there is this picture of the Libbster I took Christmas morning lets see if I can post it. It worked it worked. Now lets see if she reads my blog and kills me?!?!?!

HO! HO! HO!

Well Christmas is like 5 days away. Now by the time blogger gets this posted it could be Jan. for all I know. I was given tickets to the Brooks and Dunn Show New Years Eve at the GEC. Why am I getting all these tickets to country shows and I missed all the cool shows this summer like Aero Smith , Def Lepard etc. I haven't got a clue. I still have no one to go with me so I might just give them back. Mother won them in a Drawing. They can redraw. Besides it is New Years Eve and the show is downtown. Nashville is plum stupid and at 11:00PM all the lights in down town go on flash so getting out of the area is a nightmare. When half of Nashville is leaving just after midnight.

A letter to Santa

Dear Santa,


I have been a pretty good girl this year. But no child is perfect right? I’ll do better next year I swear. But there are a few things I want:

I want a new President. The one I have now sucks. He has hurt a lot of people and murdered thousands.

I want a digital Camera.

I want no one else to die as we “forge ahead” let The President and his elves go over there with guns and play if they want to “ forge ahead” so badly.

I want Health Insurance I can’t afford it and eat too. Somehow everyone ever elected to a public office has free health insurance for life and here I sit with out it. I thought their job was to protect me?

I want a higher minum wage. $5.15 an hour is not a living wage but the boneheads in The Senate and Congress somehow get a raise every year. Minum wage has not been raised in Ten years. Can you fix this?

I want EQUAL RIGHTS for all humans. I thought I lived in America in 2006. How can hate laws pass in this day and age?

I want to meet Oprah she is pretty rockin.

I want the Tennessee Department of Human Services fixed why will we take dogs out of a home because it is to nasty for them but leave a disabled child?

I want to vote for once and not have to pick the less slimy of two candidates.

I want all the soldiers that are returning from “war” to not suffer the rest of their lives with nightmares about what they saw and did.

I want to be more peaceful.

And while you’re at it….

I want a husband too. A good one, not a used one. He must be kind, honest, generous, funny, employed, have a strong mind, be respectful, and have good manners.
He must be able to hold me when I cry and cuddle when we watch TV. He should be an awesome lover and he should not mind PDA’s such as holding hands, putting his arm around me, or sweet kisses.
He should understand the importance of being honest about his feelings and sharing them with me for this will be how we will grow.
He needs to remember the small things without me having to tell him. Like how I take my tea and how I order my coffee form Starbucks. And that flowers just because are the best. The big things to Like our Anniversary, my birthday and why ‘I’ll be home for Christmas’ makes me ball like a baby.
He needs to understand why walking in a gentle rain in the summer is where flash backs of childhood come from and new memories are made. He should be able to pick up after himself. Cook a meal and clean up. And it would be a plus if he could fix my computer I am gonna mess it up. Love , Fern

"F" WORD

Bush’s new “F” word phrase “forge ahead” is not the “F” word I had in mind.


Hear are a few better ones

Fatal
FUBAR
Fruitless
Flounder
Flub
Fizzle
Ferocious
Folly
Foredoom
Forbidding
Foolish
Fumble, Funeral. Got any more?

The Road to Happiness.........

President Bush, First Lady Laura and Dick Cheney were flying on Air Force One. George looked at Laura, chuckled and said, "You know, I could throw a $1,000 bill out of the window right now and make somebody very happy."Laura shrugged her shoulders and replied, "I could throw ten $100 bills out of the window and make ten people very happy."Cheney added, "That being the case, I could throw one hundred $10 bills out of the window and make a hundred people very happy."Hearing their exchange, the pilot rolled his eyes and said to his co-pilot, "Such big-shots back there. Hell, I could throw all of them out of the window and make 56+ million people very happy."

How I would have done it

Though I am not going to bring up names of what the Title is about I am sure you all have seen the news and know the slimy Son of Bitch I am talking about. He does not desirve the attention he is getting. But it has made me think. I would have finished college when I had the chance. I have always used protection. I would not been so up tight. I would see where my fault lies in it. I would enjoy time with friends and not pull myself away and hide within myself. How would you have done it? Edited to add: Now we don't have to worry about how he would have done it. HAHA evil S.O.B. But still if you have an "it" as long it is not Murder. How would you have done it?

Stay at the YMCA

I am not as anxious today as I was yesterday. I am somewhat at ease. I talked to my sister who just got back from New York City Monday where she had a fabulous time. They stayed at the Y where you can get a room in Manhattan with the bathroom down the hall and bunk beds for $98 a night. She was right at Central Park New York is one of those places I have always wanted go, I have also always wanted to go to Paris, France (Not Texas not Tennessee), Swiss Alps, Colorado. I would just love the chance to travel. But for now a trip to the Mountains will do me good. Paris is a while off.
Where would you like to travel to?

Just a little.....

So I am a little over anxious! Why? You may ask. Well I am crazy for starters! my friend Stephanie had promised me a get –a- way. Not that she was giving me one but one where we all got together. Then she decided to go and break the sacred United Single Women pledge by getting married and we had to put off our get- a-way.
I am so over anxious that I emailed her the other day asking about getting together this March maybe May. It is not like we don’t have time we have plenty. But she has not answered me back. I mean what in the world could a newly wed be doing that she can’t answer my email immediately? I am going nuts. I don’t care if it is a girl’s weekend or a Couples and Fern weekend. Don’t care. But right now I am opposed to children being allowed.
Just a long weekend of talking, laughing, cooking, eating, hiking, playing board and card games, having a few drinks and morning tea as you get to watch the fog roll across the valley or mountain tops. I know I am pushing it. I am trying not to. I just want to get to planning; you know figure out if it’s couples and Fern or just a big gal pals thing. Start inviting People figure out who all wants to come and where we want to go. How big a cabin will we need? What will do? What will we eat? Who is doing what? OK it is a vacation I crave. I want one!!!! I am trying to breath relax let it come. But I feel like a kid at Christmas. I want to send my letter to Santa and know what is under the tree. I have 4 -5 months lord I am only going to make it worse. Any tips out there? I thought of banging my head on my desk. (SIGH). I’ll be ok. I swear. No pressure it’s all in my head.

Facts about Jon

I have nothing to say other than the fact Jon is a boob. He claims that I need no help in doing BAD THINGS. I laugh HA. He is evil I tell you all. Listen to nothing the man in New Jersey has to say.

Beating Hate

I was under no illusions that Tennesseans would allow All Tennesseans to have equal rights. I kind of knew that they would vote to allow The Constitution of the State of Tennessee to be changed BUT I am some what dismayed that it passed by an unbelievable 81.3% that is 1,414,562 Tennesseans who voted for HATE . They voted to hold down other people in the name of God.
This is why I don’t go to church. I believe in a loving and accepting God. Not a vengeful punishing God.
I am ashamed to be a Tennessean and know have total conformation why I will not call myself a Christian. I want nothing to do with them much like I don’t want anything to do with Child Molesters or Murderers.
Vote No still has a movement going and I plan to be involved. I remember asking my parents several times about the Civil Rights Movement. “Why did you let it happen?” I asked. “Well Fran that is just the way things were.” They answered. I am ashamed of them for letting things stay the way they were because that is how things were. I don’t want to give that answer to my children. I find it unacceptable. I will not stand for intolerance in the land of the free. We have set ourselves back years. It is a long fight for Equal Rights. I will not look at the next generation and tell them I did not do anything to stop it.

The Blame Game

I suppose at this point I could bitch about a whole slew of things in the world today or just in my world I have not blamed my problems and woes on any one in a long time. I used to take the time to hand pick someone and I would let them know that everything that went wrong on this day would be their fault. “Jon, today what ever goes wrong is your fault.” This also means I have to give him praise for what goes right. Tomorrow I’ll blame Robert and then I will take Friday. Just kidding. OK not really when I was a supervisor I found it as a way to joke with the staff and get their attention. You blame them for the stuff that happened while they were not there. But my plan when I sat down here was to do a rant about The President, The Government and how completely moronic they are Jon , nor Robert deserve that kind of blame they are after all a great guys. I would have to name names of people on my shit list, the ones that you do that old Southern grin and nod thing too. This however poses a problem they have not ticked me off to the point that I am going to tell them to Kiss the Little Red Devil Tattooed on my Lilly white @$$. Or I still have to maintain a civil relationship with em.
I have been working on being more peaceful relax, release, rejuvenate. In fact I was so peaceful earlier this week that I actually dropped a “Hello” to the Freak. Talk about release!!! Rather a big step for me. OK when I said hello it was to find out why his Miami Hurricanes started a brawl. But I was polite doesn’t that count for something?

Well I was going to do some rant on North Korea and why if they are a threat to us are we closing NORAD. But I am spent.

The Lesson

The death of five girls and the shooting of 5 others in an Amish School house by a man who was clearly out of his ever loving mind has shaken the world. But, what I learned what I found in all this is strength. The Amish have not only said forgive Charles Carl Roberts IV they have shown it, To the WORLD. The same days as this man took the lives of their children this community went and sat and prayed with his wife, children, and parents. Now to top it off they went to his funeral. I don’t know if I could show that kind of faith, strength, courage, or forgiveness. Could you?
Though it is a place I would like to be in my life to give out that kind true forgiveness. I have a few lessons to learn a few people I have to forgive. I think the whole thing is a lesson to the world to forgive, to live a peaceful life.