You would think it would have sunk into my pea brain by now. But for a reason known only to God and perhaps a good psychologist. I keep doing it over and over like my results would change.
I know I know he is 23. That is 16 years my JUNIOR. It is a game , it is not a game. Are we playing with each other or is it more than a game. It is the reason I went 7 years without sex. Who wants to keep playing that game? I mean really. What the hell is wrong with me?
He makes me promise I am going to love him forever that it will be forever, then tells me I am putting to much pressure on him.
He tells me he loves me then referrers to me as a fuck buddy.
Yes I read that damn stupid book " He's Just not that into You." Damn stupid book.
I am not 22 any more. So I don't believe him. I played those games when I was that ages. I walked away scared and bleeding.
Would someone please tell me why I keep sticking my hand in the fire? What is my problem?!?!?!?
I am so screwed.