2009

I know this is not my normal year end post but I wrote it up and it was angry and sad. Frankly I just didn’t want to post it. I have been in a bad mood most of this year. I want 2010 to be different. I want to use the flipping of this decade to let it all go and start out 2010 with a new light. I am grateful for 2009 I have learned a lot and lots of it is that I am unhappy so unhappy I don’t even want to be around myself. So I am going to put unhappy me to rest in so doing I am going to try this.


There is a lot I am looking forward to in 2010

My Poppy is coming. My dear friend is having a baby. A much loved little girl who is being called “Poppy” for now. Poppy’s Mom and Dad are keeping her name under wraps till she gets here. I get to be Aunt Fern. I can’t wait to share the joy of her birth with you in February. FYI: Poppy’s Momma is the one who named me Fern. It will be on the quiz later so study up.

I am also planning another trip to Mobile for Mardi gras in February. About the same time Poppy is due to get here.

I am going to buy a new cell phone. I know that is some News and totally worth you taking time to see what my plans for 2010 are.

I am going to be 40 in 2010. There are a lot of things I want for that. I want to be as excited about 40 as I was about 30. I rocked 30. I blew it out of the water. So look out 40 here I come. I am not sure what those plans are yet but I am planning so save the date.

I am sure there are many more great things to come. 2010 let the fun begin

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all. I hope each of you can carry the blessings of this Holiday Season thoughout the New Year.

Relax

What do you do to relax? I mean to really and truely relax? It has been such a long time and I was wondering what you all do to just let it go. Today I took a hot bath with lavender beads and that helped some but well I need to guideance here out there.

I asked for help

I did it I asked people to help me with some of the stuff for the party. There. Libby is baking some of the cookies. Pam is bringing a dish Now if I could get someone to help me clean the house I would be ok.

did you forget

Did you forget to RSVP? I mean come on you know you want to be here for my party. And I promise if you show up I wont make you take out the trash. What is it about sending out a freakin RSVP that people don't get. I know Emily Post just rolled over in her grave. I know the people that live in other States are not coming. I get that I love them and want them to know I am thinking of them but YOU live on the other side of town. I sent out 40 invites 10 have responeded. But if you still want to come and bring a friend do. Unless it is your nasty gf/bf I am only polite because of you. Other wise I would hit em with a bat.

So come to my party and I swear I wont hit her with a bat I will be all kinds of sweet.

In an attempt

In a major attempt on my part to relax and let go I am letting someone else make and bring something to the Christmas Party. I asked Pam for the recipe and she said I'll make it for you. So I said OK. It wasn't easy. And it stresses me out to no end. But it is done.

I also don't like to ask guest to bring things because Hell you are guest. I am the host. Plus I love love love to cook.

And then of course you have those people who say they will bring something and then they just freaking don't like the time I made home made lasagna and had people over. Everyone was supposed to bring something. The person that was supposed to bring the Salad showed up and said they just decided not to bring it. Which for someone like me just pushes me over the edge and makes me bat shit crazy.

But I am letting go. DEEP BREATHS.