Sunday, November 08, 2009

Not so hot

So things have not been good. And I have not wanted to Blog because I am sick of the only thing I write about is how unhappy I am. You know how you reach a point that all someone does is talk about how unhappy they are and you get sick of hearing it. So you no longer wanted to hang with that person. I am that person or at least that is how feel.

I am lonely. I miss being in a relationship I miss having someone to share my life with. Someone to sit at the dinner table with and share my day with, someone I can share the last parts of a day with before we fall asleep.

I am tired of being unhappy in so many parts of my life. I am tired of sucking the life out of those around me complaining about the same things over and over again.

I am trying to figure out ways to improve before I destroy myself. But sometimes you have to destroy something to build it back up.

I don't know.


Anonymous said...

A jug fills drop by drop.

Anonymous said...

I have been there, sick of listening to myself complain. I have also been profoundly lonely, it's no fun. But it does cause you to focus outside yourself which is always a positive path to be on. And it works, mostly. A while back I was in a really crappy relationship. I spent every day with a person who caused me pain. And after the wreckage from that time was cleared, I looked back through my journal and it was just like yours is now. The last entry before I entered the most painful relationship ever was all about LONELY. Watch out for lonely, it can cloud your good sense!