Do what?

So you all miss me and want an update. Well one of you misses me. And I frankly miss you too. I wonder if I shouldn't just write you a letter since we both love mail. Well good mail not that shit that comes with a clear window but I digress.

I have been at my new job 5 months and 10days. I feel like an idiot. I have always felt secure in the knowledge that I have gained. I know this field I am in. I know the ins and outs for the most part I have a good foundation and I know there is always more to learn. I don't know crap. It is almost like I have spent the last 15 years learning Spanish and I get to Spain and guess what they don't speak Spanish there well not the one you learned. You pick up bites and pieces here and there but for the most part I feel like a moron. You know like in math they say what is 2+2 you say 4 and they tell you that your wrong. This week I feel better than last but OMG. When does this go away?