It happened not 10 minutes ago. We got the Initial License from the State!!! ONE JOB HERE I COME!!! I want to cry I am so happy. I have been waiting and working on this for over 2 years. And it is Finally here. OK there are a few more forms with the State to sign but there is a BRIGHT LIGHT at the end of the tunnel and I have hope. This all sucks by the fact that I am working all weekend delivering pizza. But this is the last SUPER BOWL weekend I deliver pizza.
I am not going to walk in and quit tonight though I want to. I am going to wait till the money is in the bank but who wants to help me plan a party?
Friday, January 30, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Which Door?
If you could pay your bills and then had money left over what would you do? And I mean send each of the people you owe money to what you owe them and not send enough to each to keep them from shutting off the cable or the lights. But go OH I owe NES 73.25 and send them 73.25 and when you were done there was money there to say I don't know buy a ticket to Jamaica with.
Or do you reach a point where you go humm screw Discover I already owe them a bazillion dollars.
So I am faced with this well issue. To do something wise or be say we STUPID. The fact is stupid can be fun. I have had lots of fun doing stupid things. Though when you are caught and sitting in the Principal's office your like "oops." And you have to weigh if doing this stupid thing is worth the backlash.
But then there is this part of you that really wants to rationalize what your are thinking as not stupid.
I am about 95% sure I am getting some form of a tax return.
So do I buy a new computer with a CD Burner and the ability to download and store sound bites and do power point and other fun stuff.
Or
Do I pay Discover. I mean my credit is shot to hell so it is not going to get worse I can pay them later. Right?
This is what is going on in my head. Discover vs. Computer.
I know I don't have to have a computer. I can take my tax return and pay off a good hunk of Discover but I can also say the reverse. One is wise the other well not so smart But I don't claim to be a rocket scientist.
But as a rule of thumb for me if I make plans for my money say to pay a big hunk off a bill with money coming in. Something big will happen and I will have to say buy a new hot water heater or something like that.
Maybe it would be best to wait until I have the money or maybe I could get it all in ones and find a stripper and shove it in his G-String one bill at a time. If I did it that way who would want to come?
Or do you reach a point where you go humm screw Discover I already owe them a bazillion dollars.
So I am faced with this well issue. To do something wise or be say we STUPID. The fact is stupid can be fun. I have had lots of fun doing stupid things. Though when you are caught and sitting in the Principal's office your like "oops." And you have to weigh if doing this stupid thing is worth the backlash.
But then there is this part of you that really wants to rationalize what your are thinking as not stupid.
I am about 95% sure I am getting some form of a tax return.
So do I buy a new computer with a CD Burner and the ability to download and store sound bites and do power point and other fun stuff.
Or
Do I pay Discover. I mean my credit is shot to hell so it is not going to get worse I can pay them later. Right?
This is what is going on in my head. Discover vs. Computer.
I know I don't have to have a computer. I can take my tax return and pay off a good hunk of Discover but I can also say the reverse. One is wise the other well not so smart But I don't claim to be a rocket scientist.
But as a rule of thumb for me if I make plans for my money say to pay a big hunk off a bill with money coming in. Something big will happen and I will have to say buy a new hot water heater or something like that.
Maybe it would be best to wait until I have the money or maybe I could get it all in ones and find a stripper and shove it in his G-String one bill at a time. If I did it that way who would want to come?
Sunday, January 25, 2009
BLANK
I have nothing. I am not filled at all with a sudden burst of inspiration. I can normally sit down and start talking about how I have nothing to say and a page will flow out. I can welcome my friend Mel to the bloggy world. HELLO MEL.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Flash Back
Here we are. Kim Murray Fitzwater, ME , and Holly Yarborough Whitehurst. When we met for lunch yesterday it had been 21 years since we had seen each other. These are people from high school. That place we all hated to be. Kim and Holly are both married with kids. Holly is still funny as hell. For that matter so is Kim. We talked about how angry we were then. Mad at the world. Who was where. Who had died. Who we had seen and who we hadn't. As we went through the list I was shocked that I had kept track of a lot of people. I knew where they were. WOW, I surprised myself.
There was a time in my life when I really felt I had no need for the people from high school. But I do. I sure hope I am not the same person I was then. They aren't. I enjoyed it the time went by so quickly.
We just could not get in 21 years in such a short time. These are women I definitely want in my life. I think they would enrich the mixture that is me. Who can I add to the mix next?
Friday, January 16, 2009
What to say ......an update
It is freakin cold. When I went to lunch at Noon it wa 20. The High for today was suppossed to be 25 I don't think it is gonna make it. Can you say wholey shit batman that is cold. The low tonight 13. Makes me wish I hjad someone to snuggle with.
That plane landed right on the river. That rocks.
I am going to Mardi Gras in Mobile. Deatials to come.
I am going to Iowa for the Porn and Corn II Tour. OK really there is a haunted Ax murder house there. more on that to or is too or also. Confused yet?
My laptop has mother board issues the little plugy thing wont stay pluged into the mother board to hold a charge. Did I tell you this?
All my pics are stuck on my lap top and I can't download new with going to Walmart and getting a virus. Who would have thought you could get sick at Walmart.
I have on rag wool socks.
Oh yea one more thing that jacket is not a winter white and even I wont wear something like that before Easter.
That plane landed right on the river. That rocks.
I am going to Mardi Gras in Mobile. Deatials to come.
I am going to Iowa for the Porn and Corn II Tour. OK really there is a haunted Ax murder house there. more on that to or is too or also. Confused yet?
My laptop has mother board issues the little plugy thing wont stay pluged into the mother board to hold a charge. Did I tell you this?
All my pics are stuck on my lap top and I can't download new with going to Walmart and getting a virus. Who would have thought you could get sick at Walmart.
I have on rag wool socks.
Oh yea one more thing that jacket is not a winter white and even I wont wear something like that before Easter.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Conversation Interuptius
After my last blog post I received an anonymous comment with a link http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28538509. That link is to a story about an Author and Spiritual Leader Neale Donald Walsch whose books I have read and ideas I have to a certain extent embraced. He has groups that meet allover the country to read and discuss his books and ideas. He holds expensive seminars around the country. Neale has written his books based on his Conversations with God thus the title of the book.
I was part of a local discussion group here in Nashville and the group took a turn in leadership I decided I did not want to follow and I left. But I also deeply felt my time in the group had run its course.
OK back to point as I again am rambling sorry but it is one of my lovable qualities right?
Neale had told a story and claimed it as his own. It was not his story but he said it was. It was in fact a story that had been copyrighted by someone else. Oopps.
I was not devastated but I have spent time thinking about how someone could take a story and so deeply internalize it that he thought of it as his own.
Then I look at say my family. I have told a story about my Mother back handing me at the dinner table and her dinner ring busting my lip open. My Mother will say "I never back handed you. You are just making stuff up!" In my mind the abuse happened in my mothers she only lightly swatted me now and again. Who should one believe? We each have our on account of events they are both vastly different.
I think it is very unfortunate that Mr.Walsch took a story that was not his and made it his own. Perhalps I should be scorned for telling people my Mother used to knock the snot out of me. Either way someone is making shit up.
Humans are not perfect. Are there still people out there that do shit that totally blows my mind? Yep. I am still shocked things people do. But this not so much.
I also always thought paying large sums of money to hear him speak was rather cultish
I was part of a local discussion group here in Nashville and the group took a turn in leadership I decided I did not want to follow and I left. But I also deeply felt my time in the group had run its course.
OK back to point as I again am rambling sorry but it is one of my lovable qualities right?
Neale had told a story and claimed it as his own. It was not his story but he said it was. It was in fact a story that had been copyrighted by someone else. Oopps.
I was not devastated but I have spent time thinking about how someone could take a story and so deeply internalize it that he thought of it as his own.
Then I look at say my family. I have told a story about my Mother back handing me at the dinner table and her dinner ring busting my lip open. My Mother will say "I never back handed you. You are just making stuff up!" In my mind the abuse happened in my mothers she only lightly swatted me now and again. Who should one believe? We each have our on account of events they are both vastly different.
I think it is very unfortunate that Mr.Walsch took a story that was not his and made it his own. Perhalps I should be scorned for telling people my Mother used to knock the snot out of me. Either way someone is making shit up.
Humans are not perfect. Are there still people out there that do shit that totally blows my mind? Yep. I am still shocked things people do. But this not so much.
I also always thought paying large sums of money to hear him speak was rather cultish
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Little DANCE
I have a follower!! Can you believe that? I was so down and depressed you know the whole no one likes everyone hates me. NO ONE reads my blog. It has been quite horrid but now I have proof that there is one person out there that reads my blog. Of course later she might want a kidney.
Speaking of following I followed the traffic this morning through the drive thru at Hardies and did not get what I ordered I can feel the grease coming out of my pours and I did even really enjoy my sausage ham cheese biscuit. The decaf coffee was ok and their coffee sucks bricks.
I have however managed to get Wedensday afternoon off and Thursday I am going to Chattanooga for girls night!! I have not been in since the summer so this will be a nice trip. I am really looking forward to it. That is two reason to dance. Lets see by the end of the day how many more reasons I have to shake my groove thang.
Speaking of following I followed the traffic this morning through the drive thru at Hardies and did not get what I ordered I can feel the grease coming out of my pours and I did even really enjoy my sausage ham cheese biscuit. The decaf coffee was ok and their coffee sucks bricks.
I have however managed to get Wedensday afternoon off and Thursday I am going to Chattanooga for girls night!! I have not been in since the summer so this will be a nice trip. I am really looking forward to it. That is two reason to dance. Lets see by the end of the day how many more reasons I have to shake my groove thang.
Monday, January 05, 2009
This is so me
http://www.gocomics.com/adamathome/2009/01/03/
So a few weeks ago I went to Sonic got me a Chilli Cheese Dog , Large Onion Ring and a Chocolate Shake and came home to watch tv. People laugh when I say I am being watched but I swear to you there is someone in my home. So when I go all totally BAT SHIT CRAZY you'll know to check the comics
But I did ask a few people if I should feel gulity eatting that and watching the Biggest Loser.
So a few weeks ago I went to Sonic got me a Chilli Cheese Dog , Large Onion Ring and a Chocolate Shake and came home to watch tv. People laugh when I say I am being watched but I swear to you there is someone in my home. So when I go all totally BAT SHIT CRAZY you'll know to check the comics
But I did ask a few people if I should feel gulity eatting that and watching the Biggest Loser.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
2008
2008
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? I went to visit Steph and her husband T in St. Petersburg, FL
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don’t want to talk about my resolutions. I resolve to be a better person in 2009 than I was in 2008.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes
4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes my neighbor Mike passed away and a client.
5. What countries did you visit? Never left the USA but I traveled far and wide in my dreams.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? ONE JOB!!
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why. My birthday vacation to see Steph. I saw history being made with the election of Obama.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I don’t feel I achieved a lot this year.I got my student loan paid off.
9. What was your biggest failure this year? Not knowing what I achieved; self-doubt; feeling inadequate; forgetting who I am.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Only my pride was wounded.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Breaks and tires
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? The little people who everyday do the right thing no matter how hard it is just because it is the right thing to do.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Where can I start AIG, FORD, GM, Bush, etc.
14. Where did most of your money go? Car payment, house payment.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Did I tell you I got to go to Florida to see Steph for my birthday?
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? Heck I don't have a clue.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? Got a big old case of the blues
ii. Thinner or fatter? Fatter.
iii .richer or poorer? Poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more? Hanging out with friends, traveling, exercising.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Working.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Here in Nashville with my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2008? You know I thought I had but then I pulled my head out of my ass and realized it wasn’t love at all but gas.
22. How many one-night stands? 2 or 3 .
23. What was your favorite TV program? TV? I like CSI, NCIS, How I Met Your Mother
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate people but I sure as heck don't really like a few people anymore.
25. What was the best book you read? Nothing really rocked me this year.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? That band that sings that sing about that thing . Does Neil Patrick Harris have a band yet?
27. What did you want and get? The greatest friends in the world. I am so blessed with a great group friends whom I would not trade for the world. Ok maybe one of I would trade but only for the cash.
28. What was your favorite film of this year? I can’t remember what I saw
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was 38. On my birthday I went to dinner with my family. For my birthday Libby gave me a cooking class at Viking and if I have not told Steph flew me to Florida for my birthday!!!
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Staying true to who I am.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? Are shoulder pads still in style?
32. What kept you sane? At this point I am not sure I am still sane. I feel like I have slipped off and really lost part of who I am.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I am over them.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? The War, Gun Control, Equal Human Rights, THE 2008 PRESIDENTAL ELECTION
35. Who did you miss this year? Jonathan and myself.
36. Who was the best new person you met? I really got a chance to meet and talk with T while I was in Florida. I honestly like that guy.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:Sometimes life just freakin sucks.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: “We Shall Over Come”
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? I went to visit Steph and her husband T in St. Petersburg, FL
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don’t want to talk about my resolutions. I resolve to be a better person in 2009 than I was in 2008.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes
4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes my neighbor Mike passed away and a client.
5. What countries did you visit? Never left the USA but I traveled far and wide in my dreams.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? ONE JOB!!
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why. My birthday vacation to see Steph. I saw history being made with the election of Obama.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I don’t feel I achieved a lot this year.I got my student loan paid off.
9. What was your biggest failure this year? Not knowing what I achieved; self-doubt; feeling inadequate; forgetting who I am.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Only my pride was wounded.
11. What was the best thing you bought? Breaks and tires
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? The little people who everyday do the right thing no matter how hard it is just because it is the right thing to do.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Where can I start AIG, FORD, GM, Bush, etc.
14. Where did most of your money go? Car payment, house payment.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Did I tell you I got to go to Florida to see Steph for my birthday?
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? Heck I don't have a clue.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? Got a big old case of the blues
ii. Thinner or fatter? Fatter.
iii .richer or poorer? Poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more? Hanging out with friends, traveling, exercising.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Working.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? Here in Nashville with my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2008? You know I thought I had but then I pulled my head out of my ass and realized it wasn’t love at all but gas.
22. How many one-night stands? 2 or 3 .
23. What was your favorite TV program? TV? I like CSI, NCIS, How I Met Your Mother
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate people but I sure as heck don't really like a few people anymore.
25. What was the best book you read? Nothing really rocked me this year.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? That band that sings that sing about that thing . Does Neil Patrick Harris have a band yet?
27. What did you want and get? The greatest friends in the world. I am so blessed with a great group friends whom I would not trade for the world. Ok maybe one of I would trade but only for the cash.
28. What was your favorite film of this year? I can’t remember what I saw
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was 38. On my birthday I went to dinner with my family. For my birthday Libby gave me a cooking class at Viking and if I have not told Steph flew me to Florida for my birthday!!!
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Staying true to who I am.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? Are shoulder pads still in style?
32. What kept you sane? At this point I am not sure I am still sane. I feel like I have slipped off and really lost part of who I am.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I am over them.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? The War, Gun Control, Equal Human Rights, THE 2008 PRESIDENTAL ELECTION
35. Who did you miss this year? Jonathan and myself.
36. Who was the best new person you met? I really got a chance to meet and talk with T while I was in Florida. I honestly like that guy.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:Sometimes life just freakin sucks.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: “We Shall Over Come”
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Uncle Jay's Thoughts on 2008
http://www.unclejayexplains.com/media/UJ%2012-22-08.wmv
Yeah yeah I know in 2009 I will learn to imbed links in my blogg.
HEY YOU!! Stop laughing I will. Really I am serious.
Yeah yeah I know in 2009 I will learn to imbed links in my blogg.
HEY YOU!! Stop laughing I will. Really I am serious.
Monday, December 29, 2008
And some where the stars of "How do I look?" die
Did you see it. I sure as hell caught it in today's paper Plaid and those leather red wings with the leather shoe laces are back in style. And I get to do a little dance that all my plaid flannel is once again cool. I mean like I really care it is warm. So is silk but I don't have to dry clean flannel. So can I do the whole grunge thing again that I was doing way before it was cool? SHUT UP SHAMUS! Once again hanging on to old clothes has paid off and I don't have to rush out and buy it when I own vintage. I know you want to touch me don't you? Sit next to me in class because I am so cool. Yeah I thought so. I am THE FERN.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Not the normal
I am still working on my normal New Years Post however I have been thinking back deeper on 2008 and what I want for myself in 2009. What I want to accomplish.
I have spent much of 2008 in a funk it could probably be better classified as depression. My normal News Years Post is all depressing so I am going to fix it before Wednesday. My bloggs have been depressing. Why write and bring down all 4 of you? I want to let go of this I am not good enough. A lot of my issues this year stem from a feeling of inadequacy. I am a poor writer face it my English sucks and I live here. I have run on sentences and badly formed paragraphs etc. I have extremely limited computer skills and I lack a college degree. I want to be Steph’s # 55 and find my fantastic attitude. I seem to have lost that. I miss that girl. Hell I am smart and I know my stuff. I am a well informed person and pretty well read. And I am funny as hell. I want to find that again.
So 2009 is going to be fine. I want to get out of debt. My mortgage will not be what I am getting out of but my car should be paid off by February. That statement could come back to bite me in the ass as in my family we pay off a car and then it gets totaled so before I mail the last payment I am going to take a spirit stick to my car and bless it I might even burn a candle of protection in it just to be safe.
Then Discover will get their money. I can start paying them off. There are a few more out there and I will have to go digging through and find them. But I am not to worried people who you owe money to have a way of finding you.
I would like to spend less time working in 2009 and as I get bills paid off that should happen.
Things at work are slatted to change in the first few months of 2009 though this has been a promise for sometime the staying has a lot to do with the feelings of inadequacy. And now so does the economy. I have got to decide in 2009 if this is what I want to do.
Somewhere in all of this I have got to get back to school.
I have a list of things I NEED to get done around the house. Most of these I put off working on this year because I have been in such a funk I want to spend more time out doors in the sun digging in the dirt. I want to get my house clean and keep it that way. And I would love to knock at least 2 things off my home to do list (things like new screen doors, garage door, paint, etc) things that don’t have to be done but need to be.
I want to get back to eating better. I used to never hit the drive thru and I want to get back to doing things that way. I want to start to exercise again which should help with the funk thing.
I have got to get to where I set a goal and stick to it. How many times have we done this in 2008? I am going to eat better and work out more and I never get there. I never get out of bed and the next morning I am in the drive thru at Hardies.
I used to write in my personal journal nightly and then record my dreams each morning. Once a week I would go back and study those dreams. I miss that too.
I miss time with friends and want to spend more time in 2009 with people I love and enjoy spending time with.
My resolution each year is to be a better person at the end of the year than I was at the beginning I still have not put my finger on what I have done this year to better myself. What deep personal growth I have done. I am though one to believe that I might not see right now what lessons I have gained this year I am sure that one day down the road it will come to me in one of those big huge AAHA moments when I realize I was not that stagnate after all.
Other thoughts and challenges that have arisen.
Leave it to Steph. Before I left to work on this I had left my status on facebook at thinking of my goals for 2009. She has commented to me do the 9 fun things in 2009 with me from our 43 things list well there sister what about we here and now plan a girls weekend for 2009. Then we can work on staying in touch with friends.
I have spent much of 2008 in a funk it could probably be better classified as depression. My normal News Years Post is all depressing so I am going to fix it before Wednesday. My bloggs have been depressing. Why write and bring down all 4 of you? I want to let go of this I am not good enough. A lot of my issues this year stem from a feeling of inadequacy. I am a poor writer face it my English sucks and I live here. I have run on sentences and badly formed paragraphs etc. I have extremely limited computer skills and I lack a college degree. I want to be Steph’s # 55 and find my fantastic attitude. I seem to have lost that. I miss that girl. Hell I am smart and I know my stuff. I am a well informed person and pretty well read. And I am funny as hell. I want to find that again.
So 2009 is going to be fine. I want to get out of debt. My mortgage will not be what I am getting out of but my car should be paid off by February. That statement could come back to bite me in the ass as in my family we pay off a car and then it gets totaled so before I mail the last payment I am going to take a spirit stick to my car and bless it I might even burn a candle of protection in it just to be safe.
Then Discover will get their money. I can start paying them off. There are a few more out there and I will have to go digging through and find them. But I am not to worried people who you owe money to have a way of finding you.
I would like to spend less time working in 2009 and as I get bills paid off that should happen.
Things at work are slatted to change in the first few months of 2009 though this has been a promise for sometime the staying has a lot to do with the feelings of inadequacy. And now so does the economy. I have got to decide in 2009 if this is what I want to do.
Somewhere in all of this I have got to get back to school.
I have a list of things I NEED to get done around the house. Most of these I put off working on this year because I have been in such a funk I want to spend more time out doors in the sun digging in the dirt. I want to get my house clean and keep it that way. And I would love to knock at least 2 things off my home to do list (things like new screen doors, garage door, paint, etc) things that don’t have to be done but need to be.
I want to get back to eating better. I used to never hit the drive thru and I want to get back to doing things that way. I want to start to exercise again which should help with the funk thing.
I have got to get to where I set a goal and stick to it. How many times have we done this in 2008? I am going to eat better and work out more and I never get there. I never get out of bed and the next morning I am in the drive thru at Hardies.
I used to write in my personal journal nightly and then record my dreams each morning. Once a week I would go back and study those dreams. I miss that too.
I miss time with friends and want to spend more time in 2009 with people I love and enjoy spending time with.
My resolution each year is to be a better person at the end of the year than I was at the beginning I still have not put my finger on what I have done this year to better myself. What deep personal growth I have done. I am though one to believe that I might not see right now what lessons I have gained this year I am sure that one day down the road it will come to me in one of those big huge AAHA moments when I realize I was not that stagnate after all.
Other thoughts and challenges that have arisen.
Leave it to Steph. Before I left to work on this I had left my status on facebook at thinking of my goals for 2009. She has commented to me do the 9 fun things in 2009 with me from our 43 things list well there sister what about we here and now plan a girls weekend for 2009. Then we can work on staying in touch with friends.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas Memories
My Mom made my sister and I dresses and sewed bells in the hem so when we walked they would jingle.
I remember the Christmas it was 17 below here in Nashville and the pipes froze and the guy at the HoJo told us if we would bring our own towels and soap and stay off the beds he would let us shower FOR FREE.
I remember waking my parents up at 5:30 on Christmas Mornings and them begging us to go back to bed.
My Dad going down stairs before all of us to turn on the tree lights and getting the camera. Then standing at the top of the den stairs with our mouths open.
The boss my Mom had who would slaughter a hog and give FRESH Sausage as his gift and his wife would make fresh butter. YUMMY
HOT BUNS
The year my folks had the Swine Flu and were so sick
Mrs. Hayden taking me shopping because my folks were to sick at that new mall in Antioch.
Seeing Santa at 100 Oaks and then again at Harding Mall and asking how he could be in both places.
Walking up the hill at 100 Oaks
The talking Christmas Tree at 100 Oaks
Going to Sears Downtown
The Candle Light Carol Service at Church.
My Bike
My Barbie Dream House
A TV for MY ROOM!!
A CAR!
New Jammies
How if you didn't get socks and underwear it just wasn't Christmas.
The Christmas my Grand Mamie was in the hospital and we stayed at her house in Atlanta and asking how would Santa find us.
My Donny and Marie Barbie Dolls
Leaving School and Steph and I having a car full of dirty laundry.
The thousand lights per branch on the tree
Making Christmas Ornaments that my Mom still hangs on the tree
Decorating the tree and the Ornaments feeling like long lost treasures as we hung them on the tree
My Snow Suit
The fountain I got that spoke to my heart
The Hand Painted Platter
May each of your Christmases be filled with warm memories of Christmases past and full of memories for the future.
I remember the Christmas it was 17 below here in Nashville and the pipes froze and the guy at the HoJo told us if we would bring our own towels and soap and stay off the beds he would let us shower FOR FREE.
I remember waking my parents up at 5:30 on Christmas Mornings and them begging us to go back to bed.
My Dad going down stairs before all of us to turn on the tree lights and getting the camera. Then standing at the top of the den stairs with our mouths open.
The boss my Mom had who would slaughter a hog and give FRESH Sausage as his gift and his wife would make fresh butter. YUMMY
HOT BUNS
The year my folks had the Swine Flu and were so sick
Mrs. Hayden taking me shopping because my folks were to sick at that new mall in Antioch.
Seeing Santa at 100 Oaks and then again at Harding Mall and asking how he could be in both places.
Walking up the hill at 100 Oaks
The talking Christmas Tree at 100 Oaks
Going to Sears Downtown
The Candle Light Carol Service at Church.
My Bike
My Barbie Dream House
A TV for MY ROOM!!
A CAR!
New Jammies
How if you didn't get socks and underwear it just wasn't Christmas.
The Christmas my Grand Mamie was in the hospital and we stayed at her house in Atlanta and asking how would Santa find us.
My Donny and Marie Barbie Dolls
Leaving School and Steph and I having a car full of dirty laundry.
The thousand lights per branch on the tree
Making Christmas Ornaments that my Mom still hangs on the tree
Decorating the tree and the Ornaments feeling like long lost treasures as we hung them on the tree
My Snow Suit
The fountain I got that spoke to my heart
The Hand Painted Platter
May each of your Christmases be filled with warm memories of Christmases past and full of memories for the future.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Dear Oprah
Hi Sister. I see again that you are talking about your weight. How you have just put it on. Me too. You say I know what to do and I have the tools and here I am again. Well I feel you I really do. I have put on weight and I started smoking again UGH! Seven years I went without smoking then one day I went and bought a pack. That didn't help me lose weight. I know what I need to do. I know how I should eat. But I don't do it. It's that pesky french fry rule.
It makes me feel so much better that someone who can afford to pay for someone to cook each meal for them still fights the same fight. That it is not just a battle of anyone person or group. When I was at my bone skinnest I would avoid sweets and fried foods and people would say you can afford a peice of cake. I would look them in the face and reply "I have to work just as hard to keep it off as you do to get it off."
But I just stopped working. You are not saying anything to yourself that anyone who has fought the battle of scale has not said. Never again! Only to find yourself there again. You are not alone.
It makes me feel so much better that someone who can afford to pay for someone to cook each meal for them still fights the same fight. That it is not just a battle of anyone person or group. When I was at my bone skinnest I would avoid sweets and fried foods and people would say you can afford a peice of cake. I would look them in the face and reply "I have to work just as hard to keep it off as you do to get it off."
But I just stopped working. You are not saying anything to yourself that anyone who has fought the battle of scale has not said. Never again! Only to find yourself there again. You are not alone.
Friday, December 05, 2008
Angry Blogging
"Simpson was not an individual storming a bank and taking property that belonged to others" in the September 2007 incident, the defense's sentencing memorandum said. "This was an individual who truly believed he was not committing a crime and that the law permitted the recovery of one's own property. Apparently that belief was mistaken."( cnn.com)
I wonder is that the way he felt about Nicole too? I mean he was going after what belonged to him. Right?!?!
So right now I sit here and I wait to see how they sentence him. I think this might be the perfect time to let go of the ANGRY Blogging I have been doing. I have been full of negativity here lately. And frankly I don't like it. So I have to move to fix it. So poke me when I am getting all negative.
Maybe I should make a things that bring me joy list like Stephly instead of things that annoy the crap out of me. She might have something there. If I keep this up I might come off her list. I wouldn't want that.
Here's one OJ GOT 15 YEARS DO DA DO DA.
I wonder is that the way he felt about Nicole too? I mean he was going after what belonged to him. Right?!?!
So right now I sit here and I wait to see how they sentence him. I think this might be the perfect time to let go of the ANGRY Blogging I have been doing. I have been full of negativity here lately. And frankly I don't like it. So I have to move to fix it. So poke me when I am getting all negative.
Maybe I should make a things that bring me joy list like Stephly instead of things that annoy the crap out of me. She might have something there. If I keep this up I might come off her list. I wouldn't want that.
Here's one OJ GOT 15 YEARS DO DA DO DA.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Excuse me while I pitch a Bitch
So yesterday with the cold and the snow and the gray skies I was blue and not all happy smurf blue happy pants. I was pity party blue pissy whoa is me blue. I am still not thrilled but I am not throwing myself under the bus blue either. I am cramping to is that what you want to hear? Which is really rare for me I don’t cramp often.
Plus I am having a zillion people over to my house for a Christmas Party and I have fleas yes freakin fleas people and I have vacuumed and thrown out the bag and done it again I have done it 7 times and I still have fleas. I have sprayed my carpet with TOXIC flea spray and almost killed myself and I still have fleas. And how do I know I almost killed myself because my fucking tongue started to swell that’s how. But damn my carpets are clean. Through this do you know what is sad? When I vacuum each day I am still finding cobwebs and big dust bunnies that I missed the day before? You would think that after I have vacuumed the house for 3 days in a row I would have found all the cobwebs but hell no, so that ticks me off.
And you want to know what else ticks me off cause I have a list:
1. People that call back and say yea I got a call from this number. I am sure you did listen to your DAMN voicemail I freakin left you one. 2. People that bring their kids to a job interview HELLO DUMB ASS you are applying for a job not looking for a day care. 3. People that call and say ya I filled out an application and was wondering if my background check was back. OK and who the HELL ARE YOU? 4. People who don't do the wave when you let them in traffic. 5. That whole pants down around the ass thing. 6. That hair growing out of my chin. 7. Liars 8. Ford, GM, Crysler WHY DON'T YOU fire one or two of your Million dollar Executives, oh and now you figure out you need to leave your plane at home. 9. AIG 10. People that are mean to the helpless. 11. People that are RUDE to servers. 12. Comcast 13. Gum on my shoe.
14. Garden Gnomes. 15. Dust I mean what’s up with that? 16. Hard headed people, kinda poses a problem doesn't it. 17. Cold coffee. 18. burned cookies. 19. Daylight savings time. 20. Dry lips 21. They canceled Sports Night; I am still not over that. 22. Wet news papers 23. Rotten veggies. 24.A plastic fork at Fazoli’s who the hell came up with the idea that spaghetti could be eat well with a plastic fork? 25. The Spork I mean WTF? 26. The dude in front of me at the bank drive through that does not have his stuff ready. 27. People who park in handicapped spaces because they are to freakin lazy to walk so they borrow someone’s card. 28. Sean Hannity 29. Those fools that don’t put their buggy back and just leave it to roll through the parking lot. 30. That person that rides in the left lane and won’t merge so I can pass his ass. 31. People who litter. 32. Fleas 33. Warm beer 34. Brussels sprouts. 35. People who sit there and eat while their kids are screaming their heads off. I get you are making a point but make your point at home and not at the restaurant I am eating at. 36. People who don’t leash their dogs. 37. The medical treatment of our wounded soldiers by the United States Government. 38. The fact some of my ex’s are still breathing. 39. Baggage fees by the airlines. 40. Michael Jackson 41. O.J. Simpson. 42. People that say it will happen when you least expect it. Bite me! 43. The movie Hudson Hawk. I could have put that time in toward my mandatory community service. 44. Cramps. 45. I ma sure I have more so look out.
Plus I am having a zillion people over to my house for a Christmas Party and I have fleas yes freakin fleas people and I have vacuumed and thrown out the bag and done it again I have done it 7 times and I still have fleas. I have sprayed my carpet with TOXIC flea spray and almost killed myself and I still have fleas. And how do I know I almost killed myself because my fucking tongue started to swell that’s how. But damn my carpets are clean. Through this do you know what is sad? When I vacuum each day I am still finding cobwebs and big dust bunnies that I missed the day before? You would think that after I have vacuumed the house for 3 days in a row I would have found all the cobwebs but hell no, so that ticks me off.
And you want to know what else ticks me off cause I have a list:
1. People that call back and say yea I got a call from this number. I am sure you did listen to your DAMN voicemail I freakin left you one. 2. People that bring their kids to a job interview HELLO DUMB ASS you are applying for a job not looking for a day care. 3. People that call and say ya I filled out an application and was wondering if my background check was back. OK and who the HELL ARE YOU? 4. People who don't do the wave when you let them in traffic. 5. That whole pants down around the ass thing. 6. That hair growing out of my chin. 7. Liars 8. Ford, GM, Crysler WHY DON'T YOU fire one or two of your Million dollar Executives, oh and now you figure out you need to leave your plane at home. 9. AIG 10. People that are mean to the helpless. 11. People that are RUDE to servers. 12. Comcast 13. Gum on my shoe.
14. Garden Gnomes. 15. Dust I mean what’s up with that? 16. Hard headed people, kinda poses a problem doesn't it. 17. Cold coffee. 18. burned cookies. 19. Daylight savings time. 20. Dry lips 21. They canceled Sports Night; I am still not over that. 22. Wet news papers 23. Rotten veggies. 24.A plastic fork at Fazoli’s who the hell came up with the idea that spaghetti could be eat well with a plastic fork? 25. The Spork I mean WTF? 26. The dude in front of me at the bank drive through that does not have his stuff ready. 27. People who park in handicapped spaces because they are to freakin lazy to walk so they borrow someone’s card. 28. Sean Hannity 29. Those fools that don’t put their buggy back and just leave it to roll through the parking lot. 30. That person that rides in the left lane and won’t merge so I can pass his ass. 31. People who litter. 32. Fleas 33. Warm beer 34. Brussels sprouts. 35. People who sit there and eat while their kids are screaming their heads off. I get you are making a point but make your point at home and not at the restaurant I am eating at. 36. People who don’t leash their dogs. 37. The medical treatment of our wounded soldiers by the United States Government. 38. The fact some of my ex’s are still breathing. 39. Baggage fees by the airlines. 40. Michael Jackson 41. O.J. Simpson. 42. People that say it will happen when you least expect it. Bite me! 43. The movie Hudson Hawk. I could have put that time in toward my mandatory community service. 44. Cramps. 45. I ma sure I have more so look out.
Friday, November 21, 2008
ICE CREAM
So this week Kristine over at Random and Odd told us to do ouice cream well since I am avoiding junk food in order to lose weight by my Christmas Party I had to pull something out of my archive. I bought this at Ben and Jerry's and it is Chocolate something or another. Did you play?
Monday, November 17, 2008
Good Intentions
Well I think I have finally found a reason to get back into eating right. We all know that I am really good at this whole road to hell thing. I am full of good intentions but not so good with the follow though. I have about 3 and half weeks to lose 10 pounds would rather it be 15 but I will settle for the 10. I know we have been here before but if I don’t have reason this time I don’t know that I ever will. I have very recently started talking to people I went to high school; with girls I have not seen in 20 years. I am going to ask them and their husbands to my and David’s big huge Christmas blow out. I need to look good to see them. I feel like a fat cow. MOOOOO.
I will send out the invites this week so yours should be coming. I am going to email them, which I know would cause Miss. Manners and my Mother to die at the lack of etiquette but well you all will live. I am also debating do I send invites to people who live far away who I know wont make it although I would love to see them? I mean it is not a printing and stamp cost. So if you are going to be in Nashville on the 13th let me know and I’ll give you my address.
So I have to stop going through the drive thru PERIOD. I was much easier to not do that when all they took was cash and if you didn’t have any you ate at home plan and simple. If I don’t have cash I can’t spend it right. WRONG I have a debit card and now everyone and their brother takes plastic. Hell Krystals takes plastic. OK the point to this I have to stop now so I can be skinny and cute for this party
Can I do it this time? I have doubts that was until Steplys wrote her 100 Fav things blog and my fantastic attitude toward life was number 55. So I guess that means I need to take that attitude and get with it. Somehow friends seem to know when you need that little nudge.
Have I always been this lacking in a follow through? Is this depression? I don’t know but I have 3 ½ weeks to drop so weight.
I will send out the invites this week so yours should be coming. I am going to email them, which I know would cause Miss. Manners and my Mother to die at the lack of etiquette but well you all will live. I am also debating do I send invites to people who live far away who I know wont make it although I would love to see them? I mean it is not a printing and stamp cost. So if you are going to be in Nashville on the 13th let me know and I’ll give you my address.
So I have to stop going through the drive thru PERIOD. I was much easier to not do that when all they took was cash and if you didn’t have any you ate at home plan and simple. If I don’t have cash I can’t spend it right. WRONG I have a debit card and now everyone and their brother takes plastic. Hell Krystals takes plastic. OK the point to this I have to stop now so I can be skinny and cute for this party
Can I do it this time? I have doubts that was until Steplys wrote her 100 Fav things blog and my fantastic attitude toward life was number 55. So I guess that means I need to take that attitude and get with it. Somehow friends seem to know when you need that little nudge.
Have I always been this lacking in a follow through? Is this depression? I don’t know but I have 3 ½ weeks to drop so weight.
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