I did it

Don't ask me how I got back into my blog I don't have a clue but I am going to start writing again. Hope you will join me.

Things I don't say

When I dropped him off he looked at me and said "Don't blog about this." "Do you even read my blog?" I asked him. "Nope I don't think I ever have." Its not like I'm The Bloggess or even Dooce. I am low level blogger I have 6 freakin follwers. But DUDE that story was funny. Well I could write it as funny. I think. So I am not going to blog about. But if you want to buy me a cup of coffee or a beer I will gladdly regail you with it. Unless this is "HIM" then this is just a joke because really no one reads my blog. Fuck they took spell check.

Trying

I have been trying to think of what I wanted to say. I have no earth shattering news. I made pizza on the grill.I know stop the world from spinning you want to get off.
I have gained weight and I am sick of my job. I love the clients but I can't seem to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. So I am asking for prayers , positive love and light , Riki that I can figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

I also want fresh chocolate chip cookies and cold milk. Oh and some lactose tablets.

Know that....

Dear Friend;

You know who you are and I hope you are still checking my blog. I know you broke up with me when I would not be supportive of you going back to a husband who beat the fuck out of you. (I totally get that my last statement was passive aggressive.) But I could not and would do that. I understand that you felt betrayed by me and that you love him and he is your husband and you want to make things work. You feel everyone has misjudged him and no one will give him a chance. I need you to know a few things.

When he does ,and he will, hit you again and you decided that you are worth more than to be used as his punching bag. When you realize that no amount of mood stabilizers will fix what he is. When you decide what a bright , funny , loving , kind person you are . I am here for you. I pray for your safety every single day. I Pray that he does not kill you. I pray that you will be able to get away. I pray that , that beautiful spirit I once knew is still there. I pray you know what value you have as a person, a woman, a daughter, a sister, and a friend.

Know that I still love you my dear sweet friend , know that my door is always open to you. Know that you can call me and I will be there.

I know you did what you felt you needed to do. When you are ready come home.

Stephen King

I have started reading 11/22/63. It is 842 pages in hard back not including the Afterward. I should be finished this time next year. Unless I fall alseep reading , drop the book on my head and send myself into a coma.

I Resolve

New Year’s Resolutions for 2012

1) Be a better and more present friend. I have wonderful friends many of whom live in other states and I don’t talk to them like I should. We go way to long without talking and in the New Year I want to fix this. There are tons of ways to talk –phone , email, skype, facetime etc and I miss them. I miss you.
2) I want to figure out what I want to be when I grow up and make a move toward doing it.
3) I have been saying for years this will be the year I start running and now I have been challenged to get moving. Ya we’ll see But I am going to try.
4) Quite honestly 2011 was a pain in my ass. It was a hard year New Job, My Dad was sick , Depressed most of the year . I want to wrap it up put a bow on and store it till I am ready to learn from it.
5) I have got to see Poppy this year. She is getting so big and I want to love on her and her Momma.
6) Gotta Sky Dive again

down with it

After a stern talking to by my doctor about getting my blood pressure down or else back in June. I called my doctor today and made an appointment to go in and get some meds. I don't even have the energy to exercise I am having head aches on a weekly basis because my BP is so high and I frankly don't want to have a stroke. I have to be around to tell AJ stories about her mother and I and all our adventures.

I had a choice of either this Wednesday or October 10th because the company I work for requires a minimum of a two weeks notice for a day off. I could not go this week. So if I do stroke out before then sue them. I could have called in sick on Wednesday but damn my mother and her ethics. Why did she have to teach me to be all moral and crap.

So I am going to get meds then get busy well I will get busy on the days I am not feeling like death on a stick.